OUR MELTED FAMILY.

OKAY HERE I GO. FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DO NOT KNOW MUCH ABOUT ME. I GUESS I WILL LET YOU IN ON A FEW THINGS SINCE THIS IS A REAL BLOG AND LET YOU GET TO KNOW THE REAL ME AND MY FAMILY AND HOW WE BECAME A FAMILY. I AM NOT MUCH OF A SPELLER SO BARE WITH ME ON THAT ON MY POSTS AND I TEND TO RAMBLE ON TO DIFF SUBJECTS LIKE I AM NOW LMAO. OH WELL.

OKAY I AM NOW 25 YEARS OLD. I AM MARRIED TO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, WHO I KNOW IS MY SOUL MATE, AND THIS BLOG WILL EXPLAIN THAT. GOD BLESSED ME WITH THREE ANGELS. GABE-7YRS OLD; LUKE -5YRS OLD; AND MADDY 3YRS OLD. 

TO BEGIN WITH. I MET MY HUSBAND NOW WHEN I WAS 13YEARS OLD, IN MIDDLE SCHOOL 6TH GRADE, WHEN I MOVED TO ALABAMA FROM FLORIDA. IDK REALLY HOW WE ENDED UP HOOKING UP BUT WE DID. LOL LOVE AT FIRST SITE FOR BOTH OF US AND FIRST KISSES.WE WERE ON AND OFF AGAIN BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND UNTIL 8TH GRADE. THATS WHEN THINGS BECAME REAL SERIOUS, WE WERE REAL TEENAGERS BY THEN. WE TOOK EACH OTHERS VIRGINITY ETC ETC THINGS WE ALWAYS ROUGH FOR ME AND GARY DUE TO THE FACT THAT HIS MOTHER WAS AND STILL IS VERY VERY OVER BEARING AND CONTROLLING OVER HIM AND HIS SIBLINGS. THEY WERE TAUGHT AT A YOUNG AGE CLEANING AND TAKING CARE OF A HOME WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAN FRIENDS ETC. WHILE SHE STAYED AT HOME ALL DAY WATCHING TV. SO WE WERE NEVER REALLY ALLOWED A RELATIONSHIP WITH EACH OTHER. I BROUGHT OUT THE ADVENTURER IN GARY. GUIDED HIM TOWARDS STANDING UP FOR HIMSELF AND SUPPORTING HIM NO MATTER WHAT HE LOOKED LIKE OR WANTED TO BE IN LIFE. AND HE DID THE SAME FOR ME. SOOOOOO WE WERE SERIOUS SERIOUS FROM 8TH GRADE TO 10TH GRADE. WE PARTED WAYS DUE TO IMMATURE THINGS WE WERE BOTH DOING.WE PARTED WAYS FOR 4-5YRS. 

DURING THAT TIME I  MET MY TWO BOYS DAD IN 10TH GRADE. HE WAS A SENIOR I WAS STILL A JUNIOR. BOYYYYYYYY I THOUGHT I WAS HEAD OVER HEALS IN LOVE WITH THEIR FATHER--HE WAS ONLY THE SECOND GUY I HAD EVER BEEN WITH. SOON I BECAME A WIFE AT 18 GOING INTO 11TH GRADE, PREGNANT WITH MY OLDEST WHO CAME IN DEC 2004. THEN 9MTHS LATER I WAS PREGNANT WITH LUCAS. HAD HIM RIGHT AFTER GRADUATING IN JULY 2006. I WAS IN THE DIVORCE ATTORNEYS OFFICE ON OUR 1YEAR WEDDING ANNIVERSARY. WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT AS U CAN TELL WE RUSHED THINGS. HE WASNT READY TO GROW UP AND I WAS TOO GROWN UP FOR HIM. ITS FUNNY BC GARY HAD ACTUALLY CONTACTED ME AND TOLD ME HE SAW THEIR DAD WITH ANOTHER FEMALE, WHICH I THOUGHT WAS HIM JUST BEING JEALOUS, WELL NOPE TURNS OUT HE WAS TELLING THE TRUTH.. LOL ANYWAYS I LOVED BEING A MOM THEN AND I DO NOW MORE THAN EVER, IT CHANGED MY LIFE. AND I HAD TO GET MYSELF AND MY CHILDREN OUT OF THAT BAD SITUATION WE WERE ALL IN AND MOVE IN WITH MY MOM... IM NOT GOING TO DOWN THEIR DAD, BUT HE WASNT THE BEST FATHER FIGURE THEN AND NOW HE IS TRYING TO MAKE IT UP BUT THE KIDS ARE OLDER AND ITS HARDER AND HARDER FOR HIM. I ENCOURAGE THEM TO SEE THEM AND THEY LOVE HIM, BUT IT MAKES THINGS SO HARD WHEN HES IN AND OUT IN AND OUT OF THEIR LIFE. ETCETC.

ANYWAYS ONTO AFTER WE DIVORCED. I MET MY 2ND HUSBAND LOL. YES I AM 25 ON MY THIRD MARRIAGE. ITS SO EMBARRASSING BUT AT THE TIME I THOUGHT I WAS MAKING THE RIGHT CHOICES. WE WERE TOGETHER FOR A TOTAL OF 2YEARS. HE WELCOMED MY BOYS WITH OPEN ARMS, THOUGHT HE WAS MY KNIGHT WITH SHINING ARMOR. HE TOOK US AWAY FROM WHERE WE LIVED TO START OVER AND GET ME AWAY FROM ALL THE EX-HUSBAND DRAMA ETCETC. AFTER A YEAR WE WERE PREGNANT WITH MY DAUGHTER 2008. WERE DIVORCED WHEN SHE WAS 4MTHS OLD. :( TURNS OUT HE IS GOOD DADDY MATERIAL BUT NOT RELATIONSHIP OR HUSBAND MATERIAL STILL TO THIS DAY. HE BECAME POSSESSIVE, MEAN TO MY TWO BOYS, PHYSICAL SOME ON ALL OF US. BELIEVED A WOMAN SHOULD DO CERTAIN THINGS AND HAVE CERTAIN THINGS READY OR DONE FOR HER MAN. WELL IM SORRY THIS WOMAN DONT DO THOSE THINGS, AND I AM NOT ONE FOR KEEPING MY MOUTH SHUT ON HOW I FEEL. 

AND ALL THOSE YRS ME AND GARY WERE SEPERATED I STAYED IN TOUCH WITH HIS SISTER OFF AND ON BC ME AND HER WERE GOOD FRIENDS ONCE. HE WOULD RANDOMLY SOMEHOW GET IN TOUCH WITH ME, GARY THAT IS, AND NO MATTER WHAT I WAS DOING OR WHO I WAS MARRIED TO HE WANTED TO MAINTAIN A FRIENDSHIP OR KNOW HOW I WAS DOING. AND I WOULD ALWAYS SHUT HIM DOWN, BC I KNEW HED WANT MORE AND I WAS TRYING TO STAY MOVED ON WITH MY LIFE AND ITS JUST NOT RESPECTFUL TO BC MARRIED AND TALKING TO EXS.. LOL

WELL LOW AND BEHOLD 2WEEKS AFTER I MOVE BACK IN WITH MY MOM AFTER MY 2ND DIVORCE ME AND GARY START TALKING. I TELL HIM I AM DONE WITH MEN. ITS ABOUT ME AND MY 3KIDS, IM TIRED OF US GETTING HURT AND MISTREATED ETCETC. HE AGREES WE WILL JUST BE FRIENDS. BUT AFTER SPENDING TIME WITH EACH OTHER, SEEING HIM CONNECT WITH MY CHILDREN AND HIM RESPECTING MY WISHES, HE GREW BACK ON ME AND WE OR SHOULD I SAY I FELL BACK IN LOVE WITH HIM... AND WE HAVE BEEN BACK TOGETHER SINCE APRIL 2009. HE STOOD BY ME THROUGH MY NASTY DIVORCE WITH MY DAUGHTERS FATHER, HE GOT UP WITH MY 4MTH OLD WITHOUT BEING TOLD OR ASKED OR EXPECTED TO. HE WRESTLED WITH MY BOYS AND TOLD THEM CRAZY STORIES. 

AND ME BEING IN LOVE WITH HIM BUT STILL WORRIED ABOUT THE FUTURE I DECIDED TO GO FORTH WITH A TUBAL LIGATION. ALSO HAD MY MOM IN MY EAR, AND LIVING WITH HER SAYING, I DONT NEED ANYMORE CHILDREN. WHY WOULD I WANT TO HAVE MULTIPLE FATHERS ETCETC. GARY DIDNT WANT ME TO FOLLOW THRU WITH IT BUT I DID. AND ALL THE WAY UP UNTIL SURGERY DATE I WOULD CRY AND CRY I KNEW ITS NOT WHAT I WANTED BUT I DID ANYWAY. AND IT WAS THE WORSE THING I EVER DID. NOT ONLY DID I HURT GARY, I HURT MY BODY. I ENDED UP SUFFERING FROM PTLS, WHICH I KNEW NOTHING ABOUT UNTIL 3MTHS AGO.  I EXPERIENCED EVERYTHING, HEADACHES, ANXIETY, DEPRESSIONS, MOOD CHANGES, BREAK OUTS ON MY FACE, HORRIBLE HORRIBLE PERIODS. 

ANYWAYS WE ENDED UP MARRYING IN 2010, YES QUICK, LOL WE FIG WHATS THE POINT IN WAITING... ME AND GARY WENT THROUGH ALL OF THAT AND LIVING WITH MY MOM TO LIVING IN 2 APARTMENTS, TO A LIL SMALL HOUSE, THEN TO UPGRADING INTO THE HOME WE ARE IN NOW. WHICH WE ABSOLUTELY LOVE AND ITS IN THE PERFECT AREA AND SCHOOL ZONE. WE ARE HOPING WE CAN STAY HER PERMANENTLY.

STILL ALL OF THIS TIME HAS PASSED I HAVE BEEN OFF AND ON RESEARCHING TUBAL REVERSALS BECAUSE I KNEW I MADE THE WRONG DECISION 2YEARS AGO AND WE BOTH WANTED AT LEAST ONE OR TWO MORE KIDS. NEVER FOUND ANY GOOD LEADS, ALL LOCAL ONES WERE OUTRAGEOUS IN PRICE. UNTIL ONE DAY I STUMBLED ACROSS LAKESHORE SURGICAL CENTER IN GAINESVILLE, GA. HEAVEN SENT. THEIR FEE WAS JUST RIGHT FOR US AND INCLUDED EVERYTHING FOR ONE FEE. FUNDS CAME THROUGH AND I HAD MY REVERSAL OCT 5, 2011. THE STAFF WAS WONDERFUL, DR.GREENE IS WONDERFUL. OUTCOME WAS GREAT. ALSO FINDING LAKESHORE LEAD ME TO MEET MY TUBAL SISTERS ON THEIR MESSAGE BOARDS. I HAVE MADE SO MANY LIFE LONG FRIENDS THROUGH THEM. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH....SO NOW WE ARE ONTO HOPEFULLY HAVING OUR OWN BABY TOGETHER ONEDAY NOW. OUR OTHER THREE CHILDREN ARE THRILLED, WE STAY TOTALLY HONEST WITH THEM. OF COURSE TELLING THEM THINGS ONLY AT THEIR LEVEL THOUGH LOL.

OKAY SO IDK HOW MUCH IVE REALLY SAID ON THIS BEING MY FIRST BLOG. I THINK IVE SAID ALOT ABOUT MYSELF. AND REALLY I AM JUST A VERY FAMILY ORIENTED PERSON. MY LIFE REVOLVES AROUND GOD, MY HUSBAND AND KIDS. I PRAY EVERYDAY AT RANDOM TIMES LOL FOR OTHERS AND FOR MY FAMILY. I LOVE TO LAUGH AND PICK ON PEOPLE IN A NICE WAY. IM VERY SOCIAL WITH OTHERS. I CAN BE SARCASTIC. AND I AM VERY TENDER HEAR TED AND I TAKE WHAT OTHERS SAY TO HEART. :) I AM JUST A NORMAL PERSON, WITH MY FAMILY, TRYING TO MAKE IT IN THIS BIG OLE WORLD. I DONT LIKE DRAMA, BUT IT SEEMS TO FOLLOW US. ANYWHO..............IF THERE IS ANYTHING ELSE ANYONE WOULD LIKE TO KNOW JUST ASK ME.... :)